measure of desire
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kaigouTitle: Measure of Desire
Chapter: 1/1
Epilogue to the Contraries Arc
Genre: drama, action, post-series
Spoilers: episodes 22-27; divergent future from ep30
Rated: PG-13 for violence, some language
Archiving: Ask permission for each story separately, please.
Critiques: Always welcome if constructive.
Like ch8, this may get a bit more tweaking before I post elsewhere. Thanks all, for reading, reviewing, commenting, cheering, poking, and so on. It's much, much appreciated. These words are part of 18K total requested by Ravensilver, Tripoverhercats, and Mikkeneko, who together donated $180 to MSF and UNICEF. If you liked what got written, give a thanks to Raven, Trips, and Mikke for being the impetus to get me back on this ball. Thanks, you three. You rock.
What is now proved was once only imagin'd.
-- William Blake, Proverbs of Hell
epilogue: complete
Ed stood on the sidewalk and glared down at his borrowed coat. Hughes had been a tall man, with long arms, but Ed had never realized quite how long – he had been tempted to roll the cuffs back, but that would only point out just how short he was compared to Hughes. He shoved his hands in his pants pockets and trudged up to the front door of the apartment building. Running down the list of names, he grinned at the designation.
R. Mustang. Apt 403.
Gotcha, he thought, and stepped back, looking up at the fourth floor. Several lights were on, so hopefully that meant Mustang was home. It took only a simple clap and some judicious alchemical reactions, and the lock popped open on the front door. Ed let himself in, fixing the lock behind him, then trotted up the stairs to the fourth floor.
When he knocked on the door, there was no answer for several minutes. He was about to raise his hand to knock again when the door swung open, and Mustang stood there, utterly poleaxed. He looked about ready for bed, in an old sweater fraying at the shoulders, and a pair of rumpled khakis.
To Ed's disappointment the shocked expression didn't last, but faded into one of displeasure.
"Fullmetal," Mustang growled, "do you know what time it is?"
"Sure do." Ed shoved past Mustang, trotting into a smallish apartment. He would've said 'tastefully decorated' but for the fact that the only decorations consisted of wall-to-wall bookshelves. "Oh, I'm not interrupting anything, am I?"
"Yes. My privacy."
"That's all? Good." Ed moved into the kitchen, and stripped off his coat to drape it over the back of a wooden chair. He flipped open cabinets until he found the whiskey glasses, bringing down two. They were dusty; he wiped them on a dishrag hanging by the sink, then turned and held them up.
"Fullmetal, that's enough," Mustang said. He held up a hand; despite his casual attire, he'd had gloves on him, somewhere. "Last warning..."
"Don't bother," Ed replied. "You're not going to torch your own place."
"Try me."
"One word, Mustang," Ed shot back. "Library." Mustang dropped his hand, looking almost sulky, but with concerted effort Ed managed to refrain from laughing. He rummaged in the coat pockets for the brown paper bags, then studied the kitchen table before heading back into the living room. "This is more comfortable. Have a seat."
"No." Mustang hadn't moved from by the door, simply turned in place.
"Fine." Ed unscrewed the top off the first bottle, pouring a drink for himself. Bringing out the second bottle, he took a second to make a silent wish that he wasn't making a fool of himself – how the hell would Alphonse have known what Mustang liked to drink, anyway? – and poured the golden-copper liquid into the second glass. "Would you rather drink standing up?"
"What the..." Mustang came around the sofa, to stare down at the two drinks. He frowned, looking away like he wasn't sure whether he should explode and throw Ed out...or perhaps like he wanted to smile and shrug and concede defeat.
Ed hoped for the second, but wasn't counting on it. He pushed the bottles out of the way, leaving the glasses untouched. Waiting.
Someone's gotta wipe that smirk off his face...
"One drink," Mustang barked, and sat down in the leather chair opposite Edward. He picked up the glass, then blinked at the bottle on the low table between them. "You got..."
"Twenty-year old," Ed agreed. He put on an innocent expression. "Not your style? I thought you were a whiskey drinker."
Doesn't look like too many are trying.
"Yeah, but..." Mustang frowned, and sipped the drink. He winced, but it was the good kind of reaction, the bared teeth that became a pleased smile: the sign of a man enjoying his alcohol. "One drink. Then you go. This isn't some dungeon..."
"Do you want it to be?" Ed kept his expression perfectly neutral. His hand didn't even shake, he was pleased to note.
"We've been over this already." Mustang set down the glass; the clink against the table had an oddly tentative ring.
"No, you went over it, but I never agreed." Edward threw back the rest of his scotch, and set the glass down opposite Mustang's. "And since I still don't agree, I'm here."
"It's late. You'll have to be on your way in the morning, for East City."
"I'm a grown man, Mustang. I can decide when to go to bed, these days, and it's not at your orders. I don't work for you any more."
"I still outrank you."
"You outranked Hughes, too."
Mustang froze, and for a long moment they stared at each other. Then, never breaking his gaze from Edward, Mustang reached forward and clasped the bottle of scotch by the neck. He refilled Ed's glass, putting the bottle back to the side. His gaze flickered away from Ed to check what he was doing, but only for a second and always returning to Ed's careful, patient stare – maybe even a little on the smug side, Ed admitted to himself, but only by a fraction. He tried to modulate it into something more magnamimous. Mustang arched an eyebrow, and Ed knew he'd failed, but he didn't care. He was enjoying himself too much.
He picked up his glass, gaze traveling around the small living room while Mustang leaned back, whiskey in hand. They were both quiet until Ed saw the books stacked haphazardly on the shelf behind Mustang's head.
"You do have Jeziorski's Thesis," he burst out. "You've probably got it memorized!"
"It's an excellent text," Mustang parried.
"It's bullshit, Roy," Ed shot back, without thinking. He paused, slightly surprised, but gratified to see Mustang's eyes open wide, just as startled, before rallying.
"No, as a matter of fact, Ed, it's not," Mustang replied. "If you'd studied Jeziorski, you wouldn't have gotten that one question wrong on the Alchemists' exam."
Edward made a show of scoffing. "You're full of crap." He got a smirk for the comment, and Mustang twisted to grab the book from the shelf. Ed groaned. "Don't be reading that shit out loud. The guy's just jerking off with bad paraphrasing and—"
"Shut up, Ed." Mustang's grin grew wide, and a bit lazy.
He leaned forward, and Ed immediately refilled the empty glass. Then Mustang sat back, paging through the book; it fell open to a point in the book that Ed suspected must be a well-loved page. He settled back, ready for a lecture...and a good, solid debate.
"Pay attention," Mustang instructed. He glanced over the lip of his glass at Ed, that smirk on his face again. "I know there's not a lot of room for brains in that tiny head of yours, but I'll see if I can squeeze in some new information."
"Crowbar's gotta come in handy, to pry your ego to the side long enough for you to fit in the same room with it," Ed retorted.
Mustang laughed, and began reading, while Ed prepared his counter-arguments. Ed knew his brother wasn't going to leave the National Alchemists' service any time soon. And there was still the unanswered question of who'd tried to assassinate General Mustang. But for that time, there were no National Alchemists. And there was no General Mustang, just as there was no Lieutenant Colonel Elric. There was just Roy, with his glass of whiskey...and Ed, with his alchemical rebuttals.
It was a good place to be, after all.
-fini-
word count: 1300
final count: 19.3K
The previous chapter would've ended it at exactly the allotment – woo, unplanned, but woo! – but I just couldn't leave it there. It needed one...more...thing. ;D
Thanks again to everyone who read, reviewed, and waited patiently (or anxiously, and you know who you are) for the end! ;D
Chapter: 1/1
Epilogue to the Contraries Arc
Genre: drama, action, post-series
Spoilers: episodes 22-27; divergent future from ep30
Rated: PG-13 for violence, some language
Archiving: Ask permission for each story separately, please.
Critiques: Always welcome if constructive.
Like ch8, this may get a bit more tweaking before I post elsewhere. Thanks all, for reading, reviewing, commenting, cheering, poking, and so on. It's much, much appreciated. These words are part of 18K total requested by Ravensilver, Tripoverhercats, and Mikkeneko, who together donated $180 to MSF and UNICEF. If you liked what got written, give a thanks to Raven, Trips, and Mikke for being the impetus to get me back on this ball. Thanks, you three. You rock.
What is now proved was once only imagin'd.
-- William Blake, Proverbs of Hell
epilogue: complete
Ed stood on the sidewalk and glared down at his borrowed coat. Hughes had been a tall man, with long arms, but Ed had never realized quite how long – he had been tempted to roll the cuffs back, but that would only point out just how short he was compared to Hughes. He shoved his hands in his pants pockets and trudged up to the front door of the apartment building. Running down the list of names, he grinned at the designation.
R. Mustang. Apt 403.
Gotcha, he thought, and stepped back, looking up at the fourth floor. Several lights were on, so hopefully that meant Mustang was home. It took only a simple clap and some judicious alchemical reactions, and the lock popped open on the front door. Ed let himself in, fixing the lock behind him, then trotted up the stairs to the fourth floor.
When he knocked on the door, there was no answer for several minutes. He was about to raise his hand to knock again when the door swung open, and Mustang stood there, utterly poleaxed. He looked about ready for bed, in an old sweater fraying at the shoulders, and a pair of rumpled khakis.
To Ed's disappointment the shocked expression didn't last, but faded into one of displeasure.
"Fullmetal," Mustang growled, "do you know what time it is?"
"Sure do." Ed shoved past Mustang, trotting into a smallish apartment. He would've said 'tastefully decorated' but for the fact that the only decorations consisted of wall-to-wall bookshelves. "Oh, I'm not interrupting anything, am I?"
"Yes. My privacy."
"That's all? Good." Ed moved into the kitchen, and stripped off his coat to drape it over the back of a wooden chair. He flipped open cabinets until he found the whiskey glasses, bringing down two. They were dusty; he wiped them on a dishrag hanging by the sink, then turned and held them up.
"Fullmetal, that's enough," Mustang said. He held up a hand; despite his casual attire, he'd had gloves on him, somewhere. "Last warning..."
"Don't bother," Ed replied. "You're not going to torch your own place."
"Try me."
"One word, Mustang," Ed shot back. "Library." Mustang dropped his hand, looking almost sulky, but with concerted effort Ed managed to refrain from laughing. He rummaged in the coat pockets for the brown paper bags, then studied the kitchen table before heading back into the living room. "This is more comfortable. Have a seat."
"No." Mustang hadn't moved from by the door, simply turned in place.
"Fine." Ed unscrewed the top off the first bottle, pouring a drink for himself. Bringing out the second bottle, he took a second to make a silent wish that he wasn't making a fool of himself – how the hell would Alphonse have known what Mustang liked to drink, anyway? – and poured the golden-copper liquid into the second glass. "Would you rather drink standing up?"
"What the..." Mustang came around the sofa, to stare down at the two drinks. He frowned, looking away like he wasn't sure whether he should explode and throw Ed out...or perhaps like he wanted to smile and shrug and concede defeat.
Ed hoped for the second, but wasn't counting on it. He pushed the bottles out of the way, leaving the glasses untouched. Waiting.
Someone's gotta wipe that smirk off his face...
"One drink," Mustang barked, and sat down in the leather chair opposite Edward. He picked up the glass, then blinked at the bottle on the low table between them. "You got..."
"Twenty-year old," Ed agreed. He put on an innocent expression. "Not your style? I thought you were a whiskey drinker."
Doesn't look like too many are trying.
"Yeah, but..." Mustang frowned, and sipped the drink. He winced, but it was the good kind of reaction, the bared teeth that became a pleased smile: the sign of a man enjoying his alcohol. "One drink. Then you go. This isn't some dungeon..."
"Do you want it to be?" Ed kept his expression perfectly neutral. His hand didn't even shake, he was pleased to note.
"We've been over this already." Mustang set down the glass; the clink against the table had an oddly tentative ring.
"No, you went over it, but I never agreed." Edward threw back the rest of his scotch, and set the glass down opposite Mustang's. "And since I still don't agree, I'm here."
"It's late. You'll have to be on your way in the morning, for East City."
"I'm a grown man, Mustang. I can decide when to go to bed, these days, and it's not at your orders. I don't work for you any more."
"I still outrank you."
"You outranked Hughes, too."
Mustang froze, and for a long moment they stared at each other. Then, never breaking his gaze from Edward, Mustang reached forward and clasped the bottle of scotch by the neck. He refilled Ed's glass, putting the bottle back to the side. His gaze flickered away from Ed to check what he was doing, but only for a second and always returning to Ed's careful, patient stare – maybe even a little on the smug side, Ed admitted to himself, but only by a fraction. He tried to modulate it into something more magnamimous. Mustang arched an eyebrow, and Ed knew he'd failed, but he didn't care. He was enjoying himself too much.
He picked up his glass, gaze traveling around the small living room while Mustang leaned back, whiskey in hand. They were both quiet until Ed saw the books stacked haphazardly on the shelf behind Mustang's head.
"You do have Jeziorski's Thesis," he burst out. "You've probably got it memorized!"
"It's an excellent text," Mustang parried.
"It's bullshit, Roy," Ed shot back, without thinking. He paused, slightly surprised, but gratified to see Mustang's eyes open wide, just as startled, before rallying.
"No, as a matter of fact, Ed, it's not," Mustang replied. "If you'd studied Jeziorski, you wouldn't have gotten that one question wrong on the Alchemists' exam."
Edward made a show of scoffing. "You're full of crap." He got a smirk for the comment, and Mustang twisted to grab the book from the shelf. Ed groaned. "Don't be reading that shit out loud. The guy's just jerking off with bad paraphrasing and—"
"Shut up, Ed." Mustang's grin grew wide, and a bit lazy.
He leaned forward, and Ed immediately refilled the empty glass. Then Mustang sat back, paging through the book; it fell open to a point in the book that Ed suspected must be a well-loved page. He settled back, ready for a lecture...and a good, solid debate.
"Pay attention," Mustang instructed. He glanced over the lip of his glass at Ed, that smirk on his face again. "I know there's not a lot of room for brains in that tiny head of yours, but I'll see if I can squeeze in some new information."
"Crowbar's gotta come in handy, to pry your ego to the side long enough for you to fit in the same room with it," Ed retorted.
Mustang laughed, and began reading, while Ed prepared his counter-arguments. Ed knew his brother wasn't going to leave the National Alchemists' service any time soon. And there was still the unanswered question of who'd tried to assassinate General Mustang. But for that time, there were no National Alchemists. And there was no General Mustang, just as there was no Lieutenant Colonel Elric. There was just Roy, with his glass of whiskey...and Ed, with his alchemical rebuttals.
It was a good place to be, after all.
-fini-
word count: 1300
final count: 19.3K
The previous chapter would've ended it at exactly the allotment – woo, unplanned, but woo! – but I just couldn't leave it there. It needed one...more...thing. ;D
Thanks again to everyone who read, reviewed, and waited patiently (or anxiously, and you know who you are) for the end! ;D
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Date: 16 Jan 2005 10:42 am (UTC)Somehow, you made me respect Hughes even more. He's not even in this story and you still managed to nail him and his personality AND give me even more reasons to love him. I wonder if he ever thought the same things Edward was thinking here.
Even with questions unanswered, this was a lovely ending!
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Date: 16 Jan 2005 03:57 pm (UTC)Awww shucks about Hughes. :D
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Date: 16 Jan 2005 03:58 pm (UTC)glad you like!
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Date: 16 Jan 2005 11:53 am (UTC)This ended wonderful. I loved the whole arc and am glad to see this part come to a conclusion. I think that both Roy and Ed are finally moving past their (perceived) differences towards a closer frienship and companionship. Whether one would want to see this go yaoi or not, is up to each reader personally, I think - until you perhaps decide that the muse hits you over the head again with a silver watch... ;)
Just like KmO, you managed to put this together so that I'm left feeling content. Wanting to know more, of course, but not feeling like I'm left hanging.
Thank you.
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Date: 16 Jan 2005 04:00 pm (UTC)Even if it did go yaoi, it'd probably take as many chapters as it's taken them so far (with more time breaks for Ed's assignments). It sure took them long enough to not only get them in a room together, debating alchemy and drinking like old friends, but just calling each other by first name -- hell, I didn't think they'd ever even manage that!
thank you again. you're a big part of what made it happen. ;D
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Date: 16 Jan 2005 09:44 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 16 Jan 2005 04:53 pm (UTC)I can't pick a favourite line, simply because I liked it so much overall. And that's rare.
Awesome job once again, Sol.
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Date: 16 Jan 2005 05:57 pm (UTC)Yeah, the joke I would make when first writing was: "if I can just get them to be in the same room for more than two hours without trying to kill each other, I'll have succeeded." And somehow they ended up in the same room for several days, didn't (really) try to kill each other, ended up respecting and maybe even liking (gasp) each other...and now they're in the same room of their own free will.
Well, Ed's free will. Roy is just slower to come around, but I think he does by the end of the epilogue. Ah. My work here is done!
Hughes rocks my world.
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Date: 16 Jan 2005 06:29 pm (UTC)Everyone's already said everything I would say. Although I think I might cry if you ever wrote anything else for this story...it's too just right as it is and it was something of a life-eater. Murph. You're now one of my favourite writers.
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Date: 16 Jan 2005 06:33 pm (UTC)Awwww. You flatter me! ;-)
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Date: 16 Jan 2005 07:23 pm (UTC)I'm glad they resolved Roy's lonliness, and maybe Ed feels better too. That's the only thing I'd say, that's lacking, is how Edward feels about everything that happened, and whether or not his drifting spirit has been grounded. (It's probably because Ed only had one chapter in his POV, but it's something to consider if you wanted to continue it.)
The epilogue was very nice and left me with a nice comfortable feeling, like when Roy was massaging Ed's scalp. I'm sure they could argue theory all night. ^^
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Date: 16 Jan 2005 07:45 pm (UTC):D
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Date: 20 Jan 2005 01:10 am (UTC)But yes, excellent job and I'm so happy I got to read this. Thanks for all your hard work and writing!! ♥
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