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kaigouDamn if I'm not this close to declaring Tetractys as incomplete for at least a month. Take a hiatus. I so loathe doing that - I keep telling myself, just six more chapters and it's done! - but this part upcoming will be the hardest to write. I don't like writing when my heart's not in it - that seems like gypping the folks who've hung in there, this long. And I do still plan to finish Contraries...just haven't been in an FmA mood.
If I see one more instance of wank from that damn fandom, I swear...well, shit. I don't know what I'll do. I was told recently that I'm a big name fan, but I guess my own stupidity got me into that one. I just wish I could put about sixteen miles between myself and that fandom. The idea that my name is now associated with it in any way just makes me...I dunno. Pity. I adore the series, really (though in some ways it's not really my sentimental favorite), but damn if the fans don't just...grrrr. And while I like hearing of new writers in a fandom, I really really wish some of those new writers were doing genfic. I'd settle for hetfic. I'd settle for yuri, even. I'm just tired of Elricest. And anyone who reads my posts regularly probably knows I'm one of the more egalitarian when it comes to 99.9% of any possible pairings between any possible characters - but incest doesn't float my boat. Not saying I'm going to diss any writers doing it. I just don't see reason to add to the pile when I'd rather spend time on giving attention to writers in less-popular pairings, or who are writing no pairings at all. But I'm also sick of two things - one, asking people to find me genfic or hetfic (and not getting any responses) and two, trying to contact those writers and getting nothing but radio silence. I never mean to be intimidating...
Really, I was much happier just writing, but I suppose it's too late for a low profile now, eh. Maybe I can broadcast premature news of my death, change my name, and start over. I'm just sick of complimenting someone and getting the rather odd reaction that they're startled I would compliment them, as if I'm some Very Important Person who has proven to be so benevolent as to take time out of my busy schedule to notice a peon. Okay, so it was surprising-funny the first few times, then it became annoying-funny, and now it's just plain annoying. And it's kind of an insult, too, I suppose, when you tell someone, "I never did this to become important in the fandom," and they express shock at the statement. Wait...you think I did?
No. I just thought I could add something to the fandom. Now I feel like I'm dragging around this massive weight that says I WRITE FOR GW AND FMA. FEAR ME. and it makes me want to cringe every time I send out an email.
If I see one more instance of wank from that damn fandom, I swear...well, shit. I don't know what I'll do. I was told recently that I'm a big name fan, but I guess my own stupidity got me into that one. I just wish I could put about sixteen miles between myself and that fandom. The idea that my name is now associated with it in any way just makes me...I dunno. Pity. I adore the series, really (though in some ways it's not really my sentimental favorite), but damn if the fans don't just...grrrr. And while I like hearing of new writers in a fandom, I really really wish some of those new writers were doing genfic. I'd settle for hetfic. I'd settle for yuri, even. I'm just tired of Elricest. And anyone who reads my posts regularly probably knows I'm one of the more egalitarian when it comes to 99.9% of any possible pairings between any possible characters - but incest doesn't float my boat. Not saying I'm going to diss any writers doing it. I just don't see reason to add to the pile when I'd rather spend time on giving attention to writers in less-popular pairings, or who are writing no pairings at all. But I'm also sick of two things - one, asking people to find me genfic or hetfic (and not getting any responses) and two, trying to contact those writers and getting nothing but radio silence. I never mean to be intimidating...
Really, I was much happier just writing, but I suppose it's too late for a low profile now, eh. Maybe I can broadcast premature news of my death, change my name, and start over. I'm just sick of complimenting someone and getting the rather odd reaction that they're startled I would compliment them, as if I'm some Very Important Person who has proven to be so benevolent as to take time out of my busy schedule to notice a peon. Okay, so it was surprising-funny the first few times, then it became annoying-funny, and now it's just plain annoying. And it's kind of an insult, too, I suppose, when you tell someone, "I never did this to become important in the fandom," and they express shock at the statement. Wait...you think I did?
No. I just thought I could add something to the fandom. Now I feel like I'm dragging around this massive weight that says I WRITE FOR GW AND FMA. FEAR ME. and it makes me want to cringe every time I send out an email.
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Date: 29 Nov 2004 05:41 am (UTC)