then again, it could just be me

There are times I feel almost relieved to get a rejection.

I have my stages: first, nerves at sending off the submission (during which I check the draft, if s-sub, or sent-email, if e-sub), ( akin to the way I find myself checking a room I've painted, just to make sure the paint's really there and that I didn't just hallucinate/dream finishing all four walls. )

Or so it seems to me.